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Saturday, 09 May 2009

  • I An depressed! MY JEANS DON'T FIT ANYMORE!! HEELP

     I NEED TO FAST.

    but I can't do it yet.. :( Have to make my dad pay for an other month at gym. I'll be exercising like hell. I'm sooo sad right now. Just wanna cry everytime I look at myself. HATE MY BODY. HATE IT!!

    I cut myself yesterday. I had a major breakdown and felt sooo ugly, fat and lonely. I don't have the strength I need to do this. But I just have to fake it until I make it. I WANNA BE SKINNY.

     

    Can't let my mum and dad find out again. It would be horrible if they understood.

     

    someone got any tips how to get motivated again? believe me I DO WATCH A LOOOT OF THINSPO..

     

    stay strong girls.

    intake:

     b: 3 weatbreads [200]

    l: none

    d: none

    s: salad and maybe a tortilla wrap, organic fiber one of course.

     

    outtake:

    ............

Thursday, 07 May 2009

  • YEEY I have a plan ;o

    Intake:

    b: detox tea ( yogitea) [0]

    l: detox tea ( yogitea) [0] and green tea [0]

    d: chickensalad [ I don't know....]

    watching "Americas biggest loser" and doing exercise at the same time ^^

    My plan *Tadaaaa :D *:

    is... this weekend I'm going on a weekend with the choir, couse we're having a consert, and we're gonna practise. I AM GONNA FAST.

    24th - 28th I am going to London with my class.. it will be sooo fun. shopping, shopping, shopping, shopping........ I AM GONNA FAST.

    I am gonna have an intake of max 200 cals the other days. And monday, tuesday, wednesday next week I only have short days at school. like done at 10 o'clock. So I'll spend 4 hours at the gym after school, plus all the other stuff I'll do.

    Sooo... I'm hoping to lose like 5 kiloes before june... HOPING and WORKING for it.

    STAY STRONG :}

    xoxo

Tuesday, 05 May 2009

  • ...... I feel fed... VEEERY fed.. eew

    HOLA..

    b: [40] weatbread

    l: [20] half a weatbread

    d: [150] woked vegetables + [ca 30] chillipepper and exstras.+ [80 -100] bread :(...

    s: [0] green tea

    s: [0] detox tea

    =

    340 ?

    Well... today has been okey. I need to do some exercise. I'm just sooo tired. I haven't slept good in many nights. So... well I guess that's why.

    I am gonna do sit-ups, push-ups, yoga and run. and some other stuff I hope.. If I get time.

     

    I NEED MORE ENERGY FOR THIS, no NOT calories.. I need some tea (Y).

     

    :/... not good

Monday, 04 May 2009

  • I'm back.. and I've got my red ribon on again..

    Hi people..

    So this is how long it lasted.. my "go-back-to-normal-eat-and-exercise-thing.". haha. Like I ever could.

    I'm back.

    RED BRACELET

    I'm sipping t my detox tea after purging up a discusting meal. I only ate it to make sure my dad still thinks I'm in this "healthy" stuff.. eew.. I have to keep it secret for everyone. I didn't do well on that last time.

    I'll have to eat more then I used to, but I'll purge if it gets to bad, and I'l work out like hell.

    THINSPO, TEA, EXERCISE, FAKE SMILE = me for the next months.

    I just have to lose more weight. And my parents must NOT know. Or else they woun't let me go to London with my class. It's in 20 days.

     

    Sooo now I'm really exited to see how you guys are doing. Stay more strong then I have been :]

    xx

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • SORRY GUYS, BUT I'M LEAVING YOU..

    I'm trying to start over, eat healthy and get out of my depression. The hunger for being perfect and the guilt coused by eating will allways be there, but I need to fix my life. I have been living a hell since I was a kid. ALLWAYS something that fuckes up my life. I gained 7 kg's in two months. Wanted to kill myself. But now I feel better. I hope you guys does what's best for you. If it means keep on starving, then do that. I adore you.

    I'll try to make my goal by healthy eating and exercising. It will take long, but maybe it will last. I've found a boy that is perfect in my eyes. I'm not ready to ruin this relationship too.

    So forgive me, gorgeous girls, but I'm leaving you. Thanks for all the support. I might come back to read your blogs now and then.

    I don't feel like a quitter, I feel it's just in time. This wasen't ment to work for me. And I need to spare my family. I will get to my goal. But maybe not like I thought I would.

    LOT'S OF LOVE XOXO

Pulse

  • I really need to lose weight before I schoolstart in august. I'm starting in 1st class at DVS.. I HAVE TO BE ONE OF THE THIN GIRLS
  • I'm having a major breakdown at the moment. crying my eyeballs out. I'M SOO FAT!!! AND I HAVE NO CONTROL. I'M DESPERATE!! HELP :'(
  • I purged again.. I have a feeling this is not gonna stop. Am I becoming bulimic? It sucks not to have the control I used to have.

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